NASYITAH A.D.

When the "HOT" meets the NOT.

2011-05-23T00:52:00.000-07:00

I had fun yesterday ♥
Thanks for walking me home~
HAHAHA.

The gemok boy persisted you know!!! I likeeeeee :P

"I can't promise you a perfect relationship but what I can promise you is that, as long as we are trying, I'm staying."

Andandand please behave yourself okay..? IF NOT, I WILL CANCEL ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU ON THE 17TH OF JUNE. MUAHAHAHAHA! ^^

I ♥ YOU MHBMN!

P.S. I miss you already siooooo. Tsk.

2011-04-19T04:13:00.000-07:00

JY! Overcome those obstacles.. I'll watch you succeed from here.

Its over.

2011-04-19T02:44:00.000-07:00

____, I want to thank you for the times we spent together. Not to forget, the memories. I will carry with me all the happier times we shared. I rarely remember anything less. You helped me grew as a person and enjoy the gift that is friendship, even if only for this short time. I know people come into your life for a reason and not all remain, but in some ways, you will.

2011-04-18T04:57:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry :'(

,"His heart wasn't meant for me."

2011-04-09T04:45:00.000-07:00

It has been long since I blog. Anyway, Life has been quite bitchy lately but I managed to pull myself through..

To be frank, i am not pissed. I just could not be bothered. Not anymore. It is your life, not mine.

Thank you for being there,
through ups and downs.
You helped me not to be scared,
About the things that I feared.
Thank you for the love that you have shown,
when you knew I would have blown.
You are an important person in my life,
You’ve helped me deal with my strife.
From time to time you always listened,
and when you did so your eyes always glistened.
You never put me down,
and you always knew how to turn my frown upside down.
Thank you for being there for me,
and letting me be who I want to be.

Ps: I love you.

2010-05-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

Heyheyhey (:

June Holiday = NO Holiday :(:(:(

What to do? Endureendure~

So,

I'm having NCC(sea) School Training on 2nd, 4th, 9th, 11th, 18th & 25th June :O

IMOS on the 7th & 8th :)

AKE on the 14th, 15th & 16th( Which means, i cannot go chalet) :/

Rugby ready for women's team, 17th :D (COURSE)

Land Spec on 21st, 22nd & 23rd :)

CIP on the 30th June ~

ISPL?!?! 6 left, JIAYOU!

F&N 30 pages course work, haven't start :(:(:(

Screw me :S

when the last teardrops falls (song with lyrics)

2010-05-15T17:08:00.000-07:00

Lia's Pro-Life Speech on Parliament Hill in Ottawa

2010-04-24T08:55:00.000-07:00

A very smart girl (:

2010-04-06T08:53:00.000-07:00

Indeed, life's weary but nothing shapes our journey through life so much as the question we ask ourselves. There's no secrets in life, it's all about us, our decision. I've made the wrong decisions in life, so have everyone but it's not the end. I believe that the wrong decision i can make in life is to be continually fearing i'll make one. To do things in life, first i must know who i am and what gives meaning to my life.

I am myself.

2010-04-01T03:05:00.001-07:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD NAZIRUL DINIE BIN MUHAMMAD RAZID :)

2010-03-23T02:15:00.001-07:00

I'm depressed and had mixed feelings. Looking at life and thought about what feelings really were. It's amazing that nobody understands. Now, more and more of my past is coming to bite me. How can i free myself from it? :'( Haish.

Had a mixed feelings in school just now :/ After school went to Macdonalds, a sec 1 guy threw salt at me without any reason, i don't know what got into me, i packed my stuff, walk to where he is and slap his face. :S I can't control myself, i can't. Sorry. Walk to the busstop, wait for the bus. Bus arrive, board on it. Cried in the bus.

A fist to stone,

to break the bones.

Covering up,

all the pain within.

An opened mouth,

a pill popped in,

to forget,

all the troubles within.

A slow walk,

to end of a cliff,

jump right over,

to forget these things.

:'(

RUNNING AWAY

2010-02-07T04:16:00.000-08:00

Running;
How long do i have to endure all this? Am i happy? Gosh, no words could describe it. I'm tired of running. Running from someone in the past, avoiding him & no matter how hard i'm trying to get rid of him, somehow, he came back in the picture.
It sucks when you can't stop thinking what you should do to pretend he's not there.
I should just avoid him, haish.

2010-01-22T21:15:00.000-08:00

THREEDAYSTWONIGHTSECTHREECAMPACT Sandra, Nurul S. & Myself.

Group eleven+twelve = 3N2 :D

HeyHeyHey!

Camp @ Costa sands, Pasir Ris

Was,

A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

More pictures to be found @ Facebook :)

First Day( 20th January 2010 )

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Once reached, all were like complaining this and that, hehh.

My camp buddy = Nurul S.

Both of us were in the same group, group Eleven A.K.A Black Panther :)

During the ice-breaking session, we did our group flag and cheer.

The next activity was clash of the titans (COTT), it was hilarious uhk. I keep hiding behind the others like a madddddd dog! I scared of the water bomb la, heeeeeeee.

The last activity for the day was the night confidence challenge (NCC). Amirah, Nurul S. & myself were dozing off when the trainers ask us to close our eyes and reflect upon the day, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! After that, we had to walk somewhere further which idk at where but the place was DARK! After that, everybody have to be in groups of five. My group members was Amirah, Nurul S. , Gladwin & Eng Kang.

All the five of us was looking forward to see fireflies & glowing flowers so, we were eagerly looking for it. BUT, when all five of us step in the mangroves, i was the first one to see all those white cloth(po-chong) which was still okay. UNTIL, i saw the 'pontianak'. I start to shivere and was holding Eng Kang's arm tightly. Gladwin = Brave, went over to the other side of the 'pontianak'. After awhile, Amirah and Nurul S. wanted to go to Gladwin's side but the 'pontianak' start knocking its chain. Then the 'pontianak' crawl over to us, we took one step back. We were still at the same spot, that's where the conversation starts..

Eng Kang

Gladwin

Myself

"Gladwin? Come back..come back.."

"You all just cross over laa..."

"Eng Kang, Please..don't go..don't go..."

"GLADWIN, COME BACK.."

Gladwin did come back.Then.. the 'pontianak' STAND wanting to chase us, so we took the opportunity to run away laaaa. I was running like a madddddd dog -.-" Amirah & myself was shouting like WHOA.

Lastly, trainer Ark scare us, Amirah, Nurul S. & myself SCREAM.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, THE NCC = POWER!

After supper, it was time to sleep.

Amirah, Atikah, Fatin, Sarah, Nasrianur, Nurul S & myself were in one tent BUT Nurul S. , went to sleep over at Ardilla's tent :)

Second Day( 21st January 2010 )
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Breakfast, cheers and proceed to our activities.

First activity was High Elements.

For the first time in my life, i really wanted to do the High Elements. Usually for other camps(P5 Camp, Camp FEAST, Camp STEEL), i was forced to do so. So yeah, i completed both elements :D

Second activity was Outdoor Cooking.

Partner with Nurul S. and started cooking.

We cook Maggie Mee.

Teamwork baek punyaa uh Syaz!

It turn out niceeeeeee :D

Third activity was Low Elements.

My group only completed two elements as we kind of wasted alot of time on the first one.

Then, it starts to rain. Group eleven, twelve & half of 3T1 class gather under the shelter. Then Trainer Ark, taught us a clap.

He said that after the camp if we see him outside, we must do the clap -.-" HAHAHAHAHHAHA.

Next was,

CAMPFIRE.

3N2 did the Pink Panther theme song and dance.

Also, we did the TEPIDEPANBLAKANG thing.

Overall, the CAMPFIRE was GREAT!

Nurul S. & myself was constantly Shouting, Screaming & Dancing.

Third Day( 22nd January 2010 )
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Went to unpitch our tents then it starts to rain heavily. Lucky, we manage to settle everything before it rains. We didn't do area cleaning, WOOHOO :D

Then, each and every trainer have to give a short speech to their groups.

Nurul S. & myself cried non-stop( tears of laughter ) because of Trainer Ark, Trainer

Sadiq & Trainer Afiq, they were gossiping about Trainer Joe! Damn funny, HAHAHAHAHHAHA!

Then when the trainers deliver their speech, it touches deep down our hearts. Hence, we cried even more.

Lastly, we cried cause of the fun times we had together with our trainer( Trainer Dan ).

GROUP ELEVEN WON THE BEST GROUP CAMPER!

Congratulations to the rest of the winners :D

Thank you to both Trainer Dan( missing him already ) & Trainer Debbie for bonding our class :)

Period.

2010-01-16T18:38:00.000-08:00

CCA Showcase was okay :)

OHH WELL, school was great :D I've done all my work, heeee. Practically there's homework everyday, HAHAHAHA! But..it's okay, i'll get myself use to it :) I must study hard and i will.

"1 way to success; Never give up"

Jerrine Tan ,

I didn't get the chance to talk to you personally. First of all, i'm really sorry for pulling you during the run. If it was my actions that made you cried then i'm reallyreallyreally sorry. I'm trying my best as a P.E. rep to make you all fit and to get my job well done. Seriously, 'i hate looking at people who gives up when they haven't even tried.' If i weren't there to pull you, will you run or.. at least jog? No, you won't. You kept complaining, " Haaaa.. cannot already... cannot already...". I can be reasonable and i am being reasonable. But..how reasonable you all want me to be?!?!?! You all never listen to a single word i say, have you all ever think about my feelings? No, you all don't. Why don't all of you try putting yourself into my shoes, i bet you all will hate that feeling. Hate the feeling to be ignored, not respected. Eeeeek, i hate that feeling alotttt. It feels like 'hell on earth' :'( Thinking of it really makes me cry, i failed. Once again, i'm sorry.

"The most pleasure thing is to do what people think you can't do."

I've found my pretty boy :)

AND Finally, Congrats to squidward cause he's in a relationship :D LAST LONG!

PS; I really miss you alottttt, milo boy. HAHAHAHAHA, ribena make my bones strong :D

2010-01-12T02:35:00.000-08:00

What am i feeling right now?

No words could describe what i'm feeling right now. Eeeeeeeek, i hate this feeling. Why do i feel like crying? Why?!?!?!?! What's with me? I can't seem to control myself. Am i sad? If i am, what am i sad about? Haish. :'(

I felt lonely, But.. am i???

Later, do my prayers and off to ngaji, some peace :)

Ps; You promised that everyone's with me. Are they really with me? For what i know, you're the only one with me.

2010-01-08T22:36:00.000-08:00

Hello :) It's a new year. 1st week of school's fine, can cope with it. Even though, i got all the fierce teachers(etc; Mr Quek) for every subject, it's not bad after all. Infact, it makes me perservere more. heee. Okay, teachers have been giving me tons of homework everyday and i've been sleeping superbbb late(1.45am-3am) lately just to finish my homewwork :) I manage to hand-up all my homework on time and you all might wonder if i were to sleep in class or not right? NOPE, i've been hyper in class. I always keep myself attentive and focus in class in order not to lose out in anything, not a single thing. And yeah, this is just the beginning. Well, coffee is my loyal bestfriend afterall :) So yeah, i'll update about school some other time yeah :) Bright side, i got the every rights to choose the path i'm turning to. To my love ones who have been cheering me up and giving me faith in everything i do, thank you, thank you so much. I love you all so much, god bless you all :D

Rules for my dearest self;
- Don't ever give myself a leisure time until i finish my school assignments.
- Don't ever give up in anything i do, stand strong.
- Be more reasonable.
- No more keeping secrets from mama :)
- Don't get involve in a relationship until i finish my O's.

Nowwwww, it's 2010, new resolutions :D Not much, i'm taking every step at my own pace.
- Get an excellent result in academic.
- Practice on path or track everyday and gym, twice a week.
- Be more feminine
- Smile more.
- Stop bitching about others. Insyallah can, amin.
- Make my love ones proud in whatever i do best.
- Respect my elders.
- Never leave my prayers.

Thank you allah.

To those who thinks there's no hope.

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When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope, One day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

ps; I still feel lonely even when you're with me in my pocket :(

2009-12-28T00:26:00.000-08:00

Hey, I'm back from Batam :) I had so much fun, with Uncle Erlambang, Tante Desi, Raksi, Fandi, Mama, Ibu, grandad, Sis Nadiah, Yamin, Raqib andandand Cik Bedah :D I didn't shop alot there cause the stuff are expensive but of course, it's cheaper then in Singapore. The food there's syiiiiok! Especially Nasi Padaaaaaang, pedas!

1st day, At Hobourfont, saw Shafiq Yusman and family, they also going Batam. Reach batam already, go to Uncle Erlambang's house first then go out.. Shop the whole day, saw Shafiq and family again -.-" then went back to the hotel(planet holiday). After that makan.

Then Raqib, Yamin, Sis Nadiah, Tante Desi, Raksi, Fandi and myself go watch movie(sang pemimpi) at this shopping mall called (BCS, pronounce it as, bhe-che-es) Treat's on Uncle Erlambang. While watching the movie half-way, Raqib and myself sleep already, HAHAHAHAH. After movie went straight back to the hotel, take the lift then go on seperate ways.

2nd day, Morning, they went to breakfast(Sis Nadiah ate for 3 hours). Mama and myself stay in the hotel room, i sleep -.-" heh. Then at noon, go shop again, HAHAHAHA. Mama, Ibu and Cik Bedah go massage. Sis Nadiah and myself go cut our hair, trim here and there. Uncle Erlambang, my grandad, Raksi, Fandi, Raqib and Yamin go play games, Haiiiiyo -.-" After that, meet up. Then, we go shop around and makan,

around 7.30pm(singapore time: 8.30pm) chop passport then board the ferry and off to Singapore. :):)

Thanks to Uncle Erlambang and mama, bought me a sport shoes :) So, i got two new sport shoes :) Uncle Erlambang bought Reebok DMX Ride.

Mama bought Nike Air SkyRaider, women's wear.

That's all for now :)

MORE pictures on Facebook.

ohhhhhhhh, i almost forgot!

These are the few words that Raqib wrongly pronounce,

Sekapang which is Sekupang

Nogaya which is Nagoya

Keming sec which is Keming primary

Ps; To that someone, sorry cause you got scolded.

2009-12-24T08:27:00.000-08:00

Hello, I'm not asleep yet. Currently, chatting with my cousin contract( Mr Tak Gentleman) heee. (: This is a new start for me, ppl will come and ask, "how would you face it?" err, i wouldn't want to answer it now, we'll see how it goes.

What's about soccer? It makes both the player(s) and supporter(s) look stupid -.-" urgh!

2009-12-10T18:11:00.001-08:00

It's looooooooooooonnnng since i post.
Hey, it's a new start, as you can see.. all my past posts have been deleted
(: